ouch

Sometimes, for no reason, my heart just aches...i don't mean like when you have heartburn or when you've run 5 miles or something, i mean just an aching, a longing, a hurting, and it's unexplainable...i'm happy, really, i'm happier now than i've been in so long...but i think the ache has something to do with that. i'm so happy that now i'm afraid that one day i'll lose that, and i don't know what i would do if that happened...so sometimes, when i'm alone, i hurt. but the hurting has made me appreciate my happiness even more.