Stop...

Make it stop. It hurts so bad, and everything I do makes it hurt worse. And he's hurting, and there's nothing I can do. I am nothing to him anymore, if I ever was anything. I'm only a memory, if I'm even that. There's something more to this that is causing me pain...something that I can't put my finger on. I've done so many things that aren't like me and I hate myself for it. I just want the pain to go away and to be back where I once was.