Stop...

Make it stop. It hurts so bad, and everything I do makes it hurt worse. And he's hurting, and there's nothing I can do. I am nothing to him anymore, if I ever was anything. I'm only a memory, if I'm even that. There's something more to this that is causing me pain...something that I can't put my finger on. I've done so many things that aren't like me and I hate myself for it. I just want the pain to go away and to be back where I once was.

Kill the Pain

Kill the pain
Never tell
Drown myself
In someone else

Never suspect
I'm not breathing
Living with filth
I'm not seeing

Let's be closer
Push away
Feel the pain
Make me stay

Grip my heart
Squeeze it tight
Here I am
Give up the fight

Feel it now
Kill the pain
In the end
I'm not the same.

This is it...only, about a guy...


"Here Without You" - Three Doors Down

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don’t think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time

I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

It hurts right here...

Here is the news: Robert and I broke up. There's a lot more to it, but that's what it all boils down to. The distance sucked too much, and it screwed us both over. It has been a week, and guess what? Still hasn't helped a bit. I still miss him like crazy...this sucks so bad. I don't know how he feels about all this, but I feel like my heart has just totally been ripped out of my chest...and that I did it to myself. Maybe it will be easier after Valentine's Day, when everyone stops being so drunk on love and starts being somewhat normal again. Until then...I just wish the pain would go away.

Things that make you go hmmmm...

So the URL thingy's being retarded...the WIBR website is:

www.1300wibr.com

just in case the other link never shows up...

MMMblog

Okay, so I'm officially the worst blogger ever for not keeping all my "avid readers" (which I know I have so many of) updated on my every move...or at least the important steps. Accept my most humble apologies, oh please please please...

So, yeah...I got that internship I mentioned on January 23. It's absolutely amazing! I get to be on the air with Clay Young on Good Morning Baton Rouge at the buttcrack of dawn (6-9) on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Some time soon I'll actually get to conduct an interview on my own, maybe with the mayor. Oh yeah, I'm cool...
Check out my "diary of an intern" on WIBR's website...it's under personalities - good morning br.
So in case you were wondering why I'm posting at this ungodly hour, now you know.
Okay, so there's a lot more junk going on, but I'll blog all about that later. Too much to say, too little time...